Cant Sleep

I havent heard from David today. He told me last night he would call this morning and he didnt and then he usually always calls every night at ten and he didnt call again. This usually means that someone has been killed and they have turned off all communications til the families are notified. Knowing that I am always on edge when I dont hear from him. I cant sleep and I cant concentrate on anything but him calling. Its like I cant breathe until I hear his voice again. Hopefully he will call tomorrow or at least I will get an e-mail from the family readiness leader confirming something has happened so I know he will at least call soon. I hate getting those e-mails. I always hold my breath hoping its not someone that we know and are close to. Its hard knowing that all these men are dying and...... ok he just called, I can breath again but he had bad news. A guy he worked with was killed. The sad part is that David was the one who was trying to save him and he died. I hate that David has to see these things all the time. This has not been a good deployment compared to the last. He only saw one really bad thing last time that I know of, and this time it just seems so much worse. I could not hold it in on the phone. I cried for this soldiers wife and what she must be going through right now. I think I have met him before, but Im not 100% sure. Well I think I should try to get some sleep now. I was supossed to go to a funeral tomorrow. Not someone I personally knew so I dont know if I am going to go or not. I dont know if I am ready emotionally to go to a funeral right now. I may just spend the day with my grandparents and my girls instead. I will decide in the morning. Well goodnight to all of you! Sorry for all the emotional stuff tonight. I just need to get it out sometimes and this blog really seems to help with that.

rainy days!

It has been raining so much here. It finally stopped but now we have flooding in the area, so the girls and I are staying home til it gets better. Tomorrow I am hoping to get out. There is a funeral of a lady from church I would like to go to. I will leave the girls with thier great grandma. If I can get out I will take them over there for the afternoon. If not we stay home again!

I want to say Happy Birthday to my friend Amy!!! She is 23 today! We have known each other for such a long time now. I wish we could see more of each other now, but as both of our husbands are in the military it makes it hard to get together. Anyways Happy birthday Amy I hope you and Jack have a great day!

The Circus!

tiger jumping through fire
us having fun
elephant
I thought this was cute!
eating cotton candy
grandma and constance
dancers

meeting her first clown
this is my favorite one
constance and grandma

well we are back from a long day at the circus. Constance and I are both tired, but it was a lot of fun and we learned she loves clowns! I really thought she would be scared of them. Im so happy that I got the chance to take her to do something like this. I love watching her have fun and do something new. Its so cute. Ivy stayed home with Grandma Ronda today. She has an ear infection so I didnt think she would want to sit there and watch it. Here are some fun pics from our day!

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Feeling creative!

My baby girls!
My creation!

I was feeling very creative tonight. I got this flower kit thing in the mail today so I decided to do that and I also got a scrapbook page in as well. I got the flower kit from a scrapbook magazine I got in the mail. I thought it would be fun to change things up and do something else creative and I really like how it turned out. The example they had of it was in bright colors which was very cute but I decided to do americana and Im glad I did. I think I am going to get two more to put in the girls rooms. they would make great gifts too. I will have to keep that in mind! The scrap page I did was of when I was pregnant with constance. Im trying to catch up. I got a little behind. But most of her baby pics are done, I just found these pics today when I was organizing so I thought I would do them.



I forgot to put Ivys stats in here yesterday after her appt so here they are for anyone who is interested. She is 31.5 inches long. 95% and 24 pounds. I think that was 95% as well or close to it. She is going to be tall like her daddy! I weighed and measured Constance as well. She is 32 pounds and 38 inches long. They are getting so big!



I will post pics from the circus tomorrow. I put a pic of the girls on here tonight that I thought turned out really good.

Ivys doctors appt.

Our precious little jewel1
the girls playing nicely(doesnt happen often!)
Grandma and Ivy Jewel

Constance on the four wheeler with her favorite cousin Rachel!
Constance being silly wearing papas hat and boots!
Sitting on her new big girl bed!

We are back from Ivys appt. She had four shots today :( Poor baby. She didnt cry for very long though so thats good. We also found out that she is starting to get an ear infection. So I think Sunday she is going to stay home with Grandma Ronda and I am going to take Constance to the circus. She is so excited about it. I think she will have a lot of fun watching everything. I cant wait to take pictures and then scrapbook it!! Here are a few pics of the girls I have taken lately. Thought you would all like to see them.

New Hair!

Ok here are pictures of my new hair cut. It is taking some time to get used to. I got so much cut off I feel like part of me is missing! Ivy has a doctor appt today. For her 15 month check up. She has to get two shots as well. Not fun! But they will be the last til she starts school. I am interested to see how much she has grown in the last three months. I will write another post tonight and let everyone know how she did!

Back online again!

Ok so I am back online again. I have been having some major problems just getting our internet to work! Very frustrating. I ended up getting rid of the dial up and switching to sat. internet. Its nice. Very fast.

So anyways the only new news I really have is that I got my hair cut and highlighted yesterday. I got 10 inches cut off!!! I just needed a change. I really like it. I am going to post some pics on here this afternoon when the girls are napping. Sunday we are taking the girls to the circus. Last time I went to the circus was with Amy and her dad. Wow what memories!! She knows what I am talking about! lol Anyways Constance is very excited about it. She wants to see the lions and elephants and clown cars she says. lol. She is getting so big! I cant believe she is going to be 3 soon! that just seems crazy to me. They really do grow up so fast.

Pics to be posted later today!